Where I am now spiritually and emotionally... Broken and lonely, but trusting God to heal and fill the emptiness.
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LET ME BE
Here I am again
Sitting here all alone
He won’t look my way
He won’t pick up the phone
And it breaks my heart
To have lost such a friend
These things crumble apart in the end
Yet I know that the reasons I’m here
Are for all the right reasons
You’ve made that much clear
And Lord, as you pick up the pieces of me
I hear you suggest that I should let me be
Lonely
Starting over
Isn’t easy at all
All the noise in life
Seeps through these walls
My thoughts churn
And frustration begins
Over all of this clatter within
Yet I know that the reasons I’m here
Are for all the right reasons
You’ve made that much clear
And Father, as we commune in private
I hear you suggest that I should let me be
Quiet
There is healing here
Though I’ve yet to learn why
All my questions
Lord, I don’t mean to pry
I know that I must trust in your plan
Though I confess to not understand
Yet I know that the reasons I’m here
Are for all the right reasons
You’ve made that much clear
And Lord, as you repair this heart that you’ve woven
I hear you suggest that I should let me be
Broken
Copyright DAS, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Le Coquelicot
I just opened up a store online at Etsy.com! I've recently begun designing jewelry and accessories. Check out my store! :) ~Le Coquelicot~ Creations by Dani
My recent creations have been the newly popular bib necklaces! Below are three that I have made thus far. :)
Champagne Victorian
Magnificent Monochrome
Vintage Buttons and Lace
My recent creations have been the newly popular bib necklaces! Below are three that I have made thus far. :)
Champagne Victorian
Magnificent Monochrome
Vintage Buttons and Lace
Monday, November 16, 2009
OC Experiences...
Apparently driving in the OC can be quite dangerous even just on side streets... Not because of cars, but because of huge tumbleweeds. Name of the cross street where I almost hit one? Hazard. Hahahahaha!
Driving through Garden Grove on the same trip home, I came across a church called Orange Korean Lutheran Church. I cracked up laughing! How incredibly exclusive! Why must one be Lutheran, Korean, AND orange to attend? ;) hahaha
Driving through Garden Grove on the same trip home, I came across a church called Orange Korean Lutheran Church. I cracked up laughing! How incredibly exclusive! Why must one be Lutheran, Korean, AND orange to attend? ;) hahaha
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Historically Brunette...
My Legally Blonde moment today, which I have renamed for the title of the blog... I feel like I should get big kudos for giving such a air head, yet intelligent answer... hahaha.
Class discussion board question: The last few weeks, we have discussed and argued what exactly is modernism. This week, we begin to read about post-modernism, and I feel I am just as confused as before. Powell gives a brief definition of what is modernism and how it is different from post-modernism. Can we agree that this is an acceptable definition or is there still something missing? Feel free to discuss any questions or ideas about post-modernism.
My answer: Today I was walking around in the mall and thinking about all the stores I like to shop in when I realized something. I have several different styles that I enjoy: artsy/bohemian, professional dress, casual prep, even some punk and goth! I actually thought to myself, "There's not a specific definition of style to how I dress. I'm just a post-modern woman!" I think this realization made me understand a bit more about what Powell was saying in the book about the lack of structure in post-modernism and particularly about the idea of appreciating the process of art as much or more than the final product of the artist's efforts. Obviously I'm not saying that post-modernism is like my shopping habits (haha), but I think the eclecticism and the elasticity of the concept of post-modernism came through to me a bit better through my trip to the mall.
I think for myself I see some big differences between modernism and post-modernism, but these are more from an art and literary point of view. It seems to me that with post-modernism, it is so fluid that almost anything goes. I am a little confused on how this directly applies to history. Does anything go as far has historical theory is concerned? It doesn't seem the case to me.
Class discussion board question: The last few weeks, we have discussed and argued what exactly is modernism. This week, we begin to read about post-modernism, and I feel I am just as confused as before. Powell gives a brief definition of what is modernism and how it is different from post-modernism. Can we agree that this is an acceptable definition or is there still something missing? Feel free to discuss any questions or ideas about post-modernism.
My answer: Today I was walking around in the mall and thinking about all the stores I like to shop in when I realized something. I have several different styles that I enjoy: artsy/bohemian, professional dress, casual prep, even some punk and goth! I actually thought to myself, "There's not a specific definition of style to how I dress. I'm just a post-modern woman!" I think this realization made me understand a bit more about what Powell was saying in the book about the lack of structure in post-modernism and particularly about the idea of appreciating the process of art as much or more than the final product of the artist's efforts. Obviously I'm not saying that post-modernism is like my shopping habits (haha), but I think the eclecticism and the elasticity of the concept of post-modernism came through to me a bit better through my trip to the mall.
I think for myself I see some big differences between modernism and post-modernism, but these are more from an art and literary point of view. It seems to me that with post-modernism, it is so fluid that almost anything goes. I am a little confused on how this directly applies to history. Does anything go as far has historical theory is concerned? It doesn't seem the case to me.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Saturday Sabbath Keeping Inter-Denominational?
While the ice cream truck is wandering through the neighborhood playing Silent Night (in October!) and a lovely little breeze is wafting in through my window, I have been pondering over a few things and decided to blog about them. Over the last couple of years or so I have been having some trouble "defining" my doctrinal beliefs. I'm still doing some soul searching, Biblical research, and praying, but so far I've realized that I don't fit into a denomination. Obviously, I believe in the common Christian dogma as stated in the Nicene Creed. Aside from that, a lot of my beliefs were shaped from my Adventist up bringing... so basically I have decided that (though I am still having some trouble with the creation debates and am praying and studying on them) I agree with SDA beliefs with some exceptions (which I think might make me non-SDA, but I'm not sure... lol!). Here is how I explained it in an e-mail to an SDA friend of mine:
For starters, I love my Saturday Sabbath, but I'm not willing to argue with another Christian brother or sister because they go to church on Sunday. As much as I personally believe Saturday is the Sabbath, I think the most important thing is that a person is keeping a day set aside to spend with the Lord. I certainly don't believe it is a salvation issue. My non-SDA friends often ask me about why I go on Saturday rather than Sunday and I really don't mind explaining it to them, it's just not something I'm willing to argue about. I'm also not willing to argue about the state of the dead issue. As long as someone doesn't believe a dead person can look down upon us or communicate with us from heaven, I don't really think it's a big deal whether we "sleep" in the ground or go straight to heaven. I believe the traditional SDA way, but either way the first thing a person would see is Christ, so I'm not really worried about that either. The biggest thing God has put on my heart is the division between denominations. It breaks my heart and I think it breaks His as well. I feel it is my personal Christian calling to try to do my part to pull back the scattered Body of Christ into something a little more resembling a whole. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to do that yet or how big or little a part that will be in my life, but I know that arguing about non-dogma issues is certainly not the way to do it!
The things I think I have the most issues with have to do with the Remnant, Ellen White, and the 2300 day concept from 1844. First the Remnant... I think it is fine to believe that many Christians will go astray towards the end of time. What I have a problem with is the prevalent SDA idea that the Adventist church IS the Remnant. Even though it is not within the 28 Fundamental Beliefs, you won't believe just how many SDAs I've heard refer to the SDA church as the Remnant. I won't even bother to apologize for the fact that I think that is b.s. I don't think SDAs are not part of the Remnant. I just think that Remnant will certainly include other brothers and sisters in Christ as well. Secondly, I think Ellen G. White had many wonderful things to say and I do believe she was inspired by the Holy Spirit. However, I do not agree with the common (though, again, not found within the Fundamental Beliefs) conception that her writings are inerrant. I also hold issue with the over use of her writings. While she was obviously a very important person in the founding of the denomination, I find it upsetting when her words are often used, by lay persons and even some pastors, over biblical texts (or consistently right along side it). I think she would be appalled by how her writings are used by most SDAs. I also think the SDA church should bring in other Christian patriarchs and theologians when preaching and participating in Bible studies for a more rounded view (I mean, it's not like Christianity isn't almost 2000 years old! lol). Finally, I take issue with the concept of the 2300 prophetic days and 1844. This one is part of the 28 Fundamental Beliefs. I don't believe that through some amazing math, someone somehow came up with the magical number of 2300 after weeding through the Bible for significant number and that 1844 marked a specific time when Christ moved in to the Holy Sanctuary. The entire idea is pure speculation. I sort of feel how my brother does about the whole thing... Christ didn't come back as they predicted in 1844, so they had to come up with something else!
So that is pretty much it... I recently started calling myself a Saturday Sabbath-Keeping Inter-denominational. I love rock praise music, contemporary style (and I even raise my hands!), along with hymns and liturgy. There isn't a specific style that defines me. Oh, and I'm probably damned to hell because I like half a glass of Sauvignon Blanc with dinner a couple times a year. Hahaha.... See? I'm the anti-Christ and you probably shouldn't associate with me. LOL! ;)
For starters, I love my Saturday Sabbath, but I'm not willing to argue with another Christian brother or sister because they go to church on Sunday. As much as I personally believe Saturday is the Sabbath, I think the most important thing is that a person is keeping a day set aside to spend with the Lord. I certainly don't believe it is a salvation issue. My non-SDA friends often ask me about why I go on Saturday rather than Sunday and I really don't mind explaining it to them, it's just not something I'm willing to argue about. I'm also not willing to argue about the state of the dead issue. As long as someone doesn't believe a dead person can look down upon us or communicate with us from heaven, I don't really think it's a big deal whether we "sleep" in the ground or go straight to heaven. I believe the traditional SDA way, but either way the first thing a person would see is Christ, so I'm not really worried about that either. The biggest thing God has put on my heart is the division between denominations. It breaks my heart and I think it breaks His as well. I feel it is my personal Christian calling to try to do my part to pull back the scattered Body of Christ into something a little more resembling a whole. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to do that yet or how big or little a part that will be in my life, but I know that arguing about non-dogma issues is certainly not the way to do it!
The things I think I have the most issues with have to do with the Remnant, Ellen White, and the 2300 day concept from 1844. First the Remnant... I think it is fine to believe that many Christians will go astray towards the end of time. What I have a problem with is the prevalent SDA idea that the Adventist church IS the Remnant. Even though it is not within the 28 Fundamental Beliefs, you won't believe just how many SDAs I've heard refer to the SDA church as the Remnant. I won't even bother to apologize for the fact that I think that is b.s. I don't think SDAs are not part of the Remnant. I just think that Remnant will certainly include other brothers and sisters in Christ as well. Secondly, I think Ellen G. White had many wonderful things to say and I do believe she was inspired by the Holy Spirit. However, I do not agree with the common (though, again, not found within the Fundamental Beliefs) conception that her writings are inerrant. I also hold issue with the over use of her writings. While she was obviously a very important person in the founding of the denomination, I find it upsetting when her words are often used, by lay persons and even some pastors, over biblical texts (or consistently right along side it). I think she would be appalled by how her writings are used by most SDAs. I also think the SDA church should bring in other Christian patriarchs and theologians when preaching and participating in Bible studies for a more rounded view (I mean, it's not like Christianity isn't almost 2000 years old! lol). Finally, I take issue with the concept of the 2300 prophetic days and 1844. This one is part of the 28 Fundamental Beliefs. I don't believe that through some amazing math, someone somehow came up with the magical number of 2300 after weeding through the Bible for significant number and that 1844 marked a specific time when Christ moved in to the Holy Sanctuary. The entire idea is pure speculation. I sort of feel how my brother does about the whole thing... Christ didn't come back as they predicted in 1844, so they had to come up with something else!
So that is pretty much it... I recently started calling myself a Saturday Sabbath-Keeping Inter-denominational. I love rock praise music, contemporary style (and I even raise my hands!), along with hymns and liturgy. There isn't a specific style that defines me. Oh, and I'm probably damned to hell because I like half a glass of Sauvignon Blanc with dinner a couple times a year. Hahaha.... See? I'm the anti-Christ and you probably shouldn't associate with me. LOL! ;)
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Romance and Mended Hearts...
My roommates have been watching a lot of romance movies lately... I'm well known to generally detest romance films. However, I have to admit that I have enjoyed a couple... Its shocking to me more than anyone I think, which has led me to come to terms with the truth about myself...
So here is the thing... I'm secretly a romantic. Not the mushy candlelight dinner or Cinderella story romantic... I'm a romantic realist and sometimes a romantic skeptic. The problem is that I believe in this thing called love and am sick of all the stupid candy hearts, feigned chivalry, and the cliche dozen roses. I believe in really loving someone for who he or she is, despite the messy stuff and the complications. I don't believe in what is so commonly termed today as "true love". I believe in GENUINE love... a love that is anything BUT blind, yet is 100% sincere, altruistic, fiercely loyal, and utterly honest. Romance to me is my grandparents still being in love with each other after 51 years of marriage... THAT is romantic.
I've been hurt deeply and more than once, but the truth is that deep inside I am a little bit of an optimist when it comes to love and romantic relationships... I believe that genuine love can heal and mend brokenness... I believe that genuine love can do this for my heart. I have to. It gives me hope. God's love does this healing and mending, but He often uses people around us to aid in this process.
I found this illustration drawn by Sarah Wade. I liked it because, unlike a lot of broken heart images I see, the heart wasn't just sewn up once or didn't only have one Bandaid on it... it has been broken many times, but is in the process of healing... Healing occurs with genuine love. So you see, I'm not a hopeless romantic... I'm a hopeFUL romantic. I hope. I believe. I long for GENUINE LOVE.
This song below is one of my new favourites... It expresses my romantic side completely.
SUMMERBREEZE- Emiliana Torrini
It might have been a while
Since you've been loved
Like you should be loved
It might have been a while
Since you've been kissed
Like you should be kissed
And tender loving arms
Might be something you miss
Well summerbreeze is blowing through your window
And summerbreeze is blowing through your hair
And something in your eyes that you cannot disguise
Don't tell me it ain't there
It might have been a while
Since you've been loved
By one who really loves you
It might have been a while
Since you could trust
That someone really cares
When people like us
Meant to go 'round in pairs
Summerbreeze is blowing through your window
And summerbreeze is blowing through your hair
Something in your eyes that took me by surprise
Don't tell me that it ain't there
So here is the thing... I'm secretly a romantic. Not the mushy candlelight dinner or Cinderella story romantic... I'm a romantic realist and sometimes a romantic skeptic. The problem is that I believe in this thing called love and am sick of all the stupid candy hearts, feigned chivalry, and the cliche dozen roses. I believe in really loving someone for who he or she is, despite the messy stuff and the complications. I don't believe in what is so commonly termed today as "true love". I believe in GENUINE love... a love that is anything BUT blind, yet is 100% sincere, altruistic, fiercely loyal, and utterly honest. Romance to me is my grandparents still being in love with each other after 51 years of marriage... THAT is romantic.
I've been hurt deeply and more than once, but the truth is that deep inside I am a little bit of an optimist when it comes to love and romantic relationships... I believe that genuine love can heal and mend brokenness... I believe that genuine love can do this for my heart. I have to. It gives me hope. God's love does this healing and mending, but He often uses people around us to aid in this process.
I found this illustration drawn by Sarah Wade. I liked it because, unlike a lot of broken heart images I see, the heart wasn't just sewn up once or didn't only have one Bandaid on it... it has been broken many times, but is in the process of healing... Healing occurs with genuine love. So you see, I'm not a hopeless romantic... I'm a hopeFUL romantic. I hope. I believe. I long for GENUINE LOVE.
This song below is one of my new favourites... It expresses my romantic side completely.
SUMMERBREEZE- Emiliana Torrini
It might have been a while
Since you've been loved
Like you should be loved
It might have been a while
Since you've been kissed
Like you should be kissed
And tender loving arms
Might be something you miss
Well summerbreeze is blowing through your window
And summerbreeze is blowing through your hair
And something in your eyes that you cannot disguise
Don't tell me it ain't there
It might have been a while
Since you've been loved
By one who really loves you
It might have been a while
Since you could trust
That someone really cares
When people like us
Meant to go 'round in pairs
Summerbreeze is blowing through your window
And summerbreeze is blowing through your hair
Something in your eyes that took me by surprise
Don't tell me that it ain't there
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
What People Will Wear in the Name of Tradition!
Kentucky Derby Hats... that in itself is nearly enough said. Haha! In a few moments of boredom yesterday, I searched through Google images looking for the most ridiculous, ostentatious, and flashy hats I could find. Here are a few of my favourites! :)
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